Before leaving the hospital where I work, I was asked "why" I was going to Chicago to march for an end to gun violence. After all, “we” don't live "there." This essay is my attempt to answer the question.
I
went to march with CROSSwalk because I needed to allow my witness to be more
than words from my pulpit. I went to
march because my oldest daughter wants to live in Chicago and I don't want her
to be shot.
While
it is true that my daughters and I went to Chicago because the life of every
child matters, that every person deserves to live in safety and with a sense of
security, I went to Chicago because the soul wrenching violence and all its
underlying pathologies that plague my favorite American city also exist in
LaSalle County, Illinois, where I live; Centralia, Illinois where I grew up;
Green Lake County, Wisconsin where I spent eight of my most formative years and
places around the globe that I will never visit.
Eight
hundred and six children and teens have been murdered in Chicago since
2008. Millions of guns are sold each
year without required background checks.
As I write this, the Chicago
Tribune has stories of at least five city residents being shot
overnight. These statistics don't
lie. We are living through a massacre.
This violence that leads to children bleeding in our streets exists; it is real. It is evil and I needed to walk with others willing to say enough, no more. I needed to be with others willing to be a living witness to the mercy of a loving God. The loving God that Christians find in the Jesus we proclaim.
I
went to march and unintentionally was reawakened to the role violence and guns
have played in my life and by extension the lives of those I love and the
vocation I embrace. I had not intended
to remember or tell my girls that after one too many beatings my mom left my dad while he pointed a gun at her.
I
live and work in a community that teeters on many edges -- the economy for most
remains shaky; the access to mind bending, heart stopping drugs is too easy;
the poverty rate in one local grade school system exceeds 80%; we border a
major interstate exchange that is known to ferry drugs and humans being
trafficked; my hospital emergency room has visits from gang bangers; men that
abuse women come in promising to finish the beating they have started. I've had my life threatened. This community sets on the edge of being
"almost urban" and not really rural. And I am a priest who works
in healthcare system leadership and currently serves small,
geographically dispersed Episcopal congregations spanning five communities,
three rural counties and a sixty mile radius.
My work and community have me witness daily the beauty that exists in
creation while having to acknowledge that the evil of violence is too ever
present.
I
marched with CROSSwalk because I live and minister in the world. I marched because I live and minister with
people who live in the world and the world needs healing. Healing that I believe comes through a man
named Jesus that marched, as Moses marched and as the Prophet Muhammad marched
-- they marched because the world of their time, like the world of this time,
needs healing.
We began the march at St. James Commons, adjacent to the Episcopal cathedral. We gathered in the heart of the city at Daley Plaza, moved on to Old St. Patrick's Church and ended at Stroger "Cook County" Hospital. At each stop we listened to the words of prophets, heard testimony from fathers, mothers, brothers, family and friends who have had their world ripped apart by gun violence. We sang. We sang hymns like There is a Balm in Gilead; we called for the healing of our sin sick world. We proclaimed the words of Amos seeking justice that rolls down like waters and righteous like an ever-flowing stream.
I
went to Chicago on the Friday before my faith tradition begins our Holy Week
because I know that the Christian experience is formed in pain, confusion,
persecution, suffering and death. But it
is founded on Easter; it proclaims resurrection. We are a people, we can all be a community,
that does not have to die. We do not
have to accept the pain and death peddled in our streets. We can be a resurrected people. There is a balm. We can heal this world and be healed.
Margaret
Meade said, "Never underestimate the power of a few committed people to
change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has." The Episcopal Diocese of Chicago says it
exists to: Grow the Church, Form the Faithful and Change the World.
I
marched in the footsteps of Moses, Jesus, Muhammad, Gandhi, Dr. King and nameless
millions because I believe in the power of a few committed people. I believe the world can be changed. I believe in one that was followed by
twelve.
It
is one hundred and two miles from my home to St. James Cathedral. The day I write these words, a gallon of gas
in Peru, Illinois costs $3.59. My family
roadster SUV gets a combined city and highway average of fifteen miles per gallon. Our trip to pray and march cost about $50.00
in gas and $35.00 to park. I marched
because the lives of the children lost, the parents taken, the families
destroyed is worth the time and gas money.
It is worth my being present. It
is worth my showing up.
I
marched because it was one thing I could do.
Let
justice roll down!